Miles

Ever absent, ever near;
Still I see thee, still I hear;
Yet I cannot reach thee, dear!
~Francis Kazinczy

A sense of missing my sweetheart sis and mom tugs at my heart strings... the two people i love, cherish and trust the most. I have been lucky and blessed by God to have their guidance, their company, their love and affection... and its true that only they can fill that void, that sad feeling of missing them deeply. Never a secret, never a covering or a hiding... the first to know of everything in their hearts, their plans, their dreams, their mistakes, their errors, their success, their joys...

The beauty of a relationship is not when you stand by and watch, but are in it, creating, playing, adding to the colours of togetherness. It needs more than a relationship to invite someone into your life, to hand over the box of colours and say... colour my life... with tears, smiles, hugs... anything and everything of what you have... it is all acceptable here...

Having seen life from different corners, i have come to understand and count my blessings... not all mother - daughter - sister relationships are blessed. Not all are strong as they were designed to be, not all are true, frank and forthright as an ideal could be.

Wish... i could run into my mother's arms and dig my head into her bosom... wish i could meet her more often, spend more time with her. Wish i could catch my sis over lunch or dinner or go out with her... its been years... since i've spent an evening with her, chatting like the growing up sisters of olden days... no one else for company but just us...

I wonder what my dreams are and where they have led me and whether they are worth all the miles in between us. I wish i could open a door and walk to be with them, ring a bell and hug them. Wish i could surprise them...with my presence!

I miss home... I miss Mommy... I miss Prikku. I love u so much and miss you so much.

I wish i could fly home soon again...I am waiting, hoping and wishing for the time, when we can be together again!

When i look at them through my inner eyes, i see their strength, i see their smiles... i see a reassuring laughter through moistening, bright eyes... a promise of their love forever and i know i carry a part of them in me wherever i am. Yes, that was the thought that gave me the courage i needed when i first stepped out of home to chase some dreams.

Have i made a complete circle? I miss them and realize there is nothing more precious than being able to be around them. Yes, they are the source of my happiness and contentment.